I always doubt my decisions after the fact. Any decision. If I decide to go left, I begin to see all the reasons why going right might have been a better idea, and all the downsides of going left. And the same if I’d gone right. The alternative always looks more sensible, no matter which decision I make.
Is this inverted cognitive dissonance? No matter how much evidence there is that I am right, I always look for the reasons why I am wrong.
Being quite reserved, I have always been interested in those people at the other end of the spectrum - the ones with an unswerving self-belief, sometimes apparently quite out of proportion to their abilities. I wanted to be like them - their lives seemed so much easier by comparison. Now, having thought about it, I’m not so sure I do. I think they have also got it wrong, just in the equal and opposite way. And it's actually about finding some sort of balance.
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